Monday, August 18, 2014

No self control atm

Guys. I need help. Last week, I ordered a medium sized package from and last month it was the Sleek cosmetics order and rn I'm on the verge of buying a crapload from I MEAN LOOK AT THIS AMAZINGNESS. AM I THE ONLY ONE DROOLING OVER HERE?!? IT'S ONLY $14.95

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I know they're all super affordable brands, but what happens when I move on to the pricier ones like urban decay or too faced. I'm scared. This has gotten out of hand. I need to step away from the internet and focus on more important things, like the fact that I'm moving to my own place within two weeks. (!!!!!!!)

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Return of the Anxiety

You know how in life you have those periods when you feel very restless, like you're in between stuff and should be doing something but can't think of what that would be. 

And then other times, you feel like you have too much stuff, so much it's piling up and you feel like you're being suffocated by the pressure of pulling through.

Right now I'm having them both at the same time. 

School (university) hasn't started yet, neither have any hobbies of mine that usually start up during this time of the year. Yet, somehow, I'm feeling the same levels of stress I experienced during my last months of highschool. For some reason I seem to be too involved in different things; work, coaching a gymnastics team, moving, starting an entirely new chapter of education, helping people out because I thought I had time to do that, but apparently, I'm stuffed! I need to stop being so available. 

It's exhausting to stress, especially since it's 99% unnecessary. 

This was the near future I was talking about. Suddenly, I'm not looking forward to it as much as I thought I would. I am dreading the return of homework yet, yearning to escape this void of restlessness.

94% unnecessary.

Tuesday, August 05, 2014

Near past, present and future

Oh goodness. I'm not even sorry for being inactive. Consider the past weeks my summer break. The weather has been insanely hot and the list of possible activities has decreased to a negative zero. To give you a picture of what I've been up to, have a look at this picture: 
I got more equipment for exercising (useless in this ridiculous heat), my phone charger died and I wanted to eat rice with one of those Chinese soup spoons. The exciting life of a post-teenager.